I remember when I first saw this diagram in Volume 2 - in the previous century, it was a mission of its own getting the original book! - and how in love I was with these Teachings! Once in the mountain, walking down and quite "high" :), I was wondering... I thought I had obviously conquered fear, I knew the exact moment of conquering it, etc., but I would not feel the clarity-elation the book seemed to promise. Why?! "Because you are a fool!", the answer came out of the blue! What?! Later on the author of the book himself pulled my leg telling me that I love to worry! That I liked even less! LOL

But now, twenty plus years later, yes, I have proper sobriety, so I can pinpoint each nuance of the description, but... so what if I have clarity on having clarity?! Not many would-be Buddhist monks around to impress! :)

So, my task for February is learning how to imbue my sobriety with feeling, in order to effectuate change!

Please enjoy Lady Elizabeth's poignant sharing!

With all my love,
(BH)
Milen

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Dear Friends,

Happy Month! Happy February and snow full moon, for some! :-)

This month we are working with “The four attributes of warriorship”.

The four attributes of warriorship is an excellent tool to gauge the nature of the current challenge and what is being called forth in it.

"THE LIFE OF A WARRIOR IS A STRATEGY IN SELF-DISCIPLINE. EVERY ACTION, THOUGHT AND FEELING HAS TO BE CAREFULLY ASSESSED AS TO ITS VALUE. WARRIORS CANNOT WASTE THEIR TIME AND PERSONAL POWER ON ISSUES WHICH ARE OF NO CONSEQUENCE TO THEIR DESTINY."

Of late I have been actively working a lot with fear because I know if I don’t tackle my fears, they will in time become debilitating, at least to start with at an emotional and mental level... Which is ironical in that my fears are arising from the physical debilitating effects I am experiencing from my last summer in Europe.

In working with my healing team here in Cape Town these past two months, I have been experiencing improvements day by day. I celebrate them even when they are minute.

No matter my physical state last summer, I jumped in at the deep end and made a decision to join my friends in Bali again this year. So at the end of July 2025! I booked and paid for accommodation in March 2026; with a proviso I could cancel up to 30^th January 2026. Once booked, I let it go. After all, I was struggling to even walk at that time.

So January arrives and 30^th January is now just over the horizon!

Mid-January my alpha healing practitioner M picks up from my body that it is in survival mode! Suddenly 30^th January is right here!

I go walking with my stepdaughter later that day and fall flat on my face! Now I have to get to the root of my fear. I aim in the direction of “Responsibility” with a capital “R”!

One week later my healer friend tells me he is “thrilled” with my progress, that he wants to check me out in a week’s time and if all holds, I can take a break from seeing him. Great news! My next visit is the 30^th of January, D Day time for a Bali decision.

I rock up in the morning on the 30^th, all seems to be going well when M asks if I have booked my flight to Bali. I say, “today is D day, what’s the verdict?”

He checks my body and says, “It’s a no. A definitive NO!”

I’m lying face up on his table and he clearly gets some reaction from me and so tells me to just lie there for a couple of minutes, which is what I do.

Surprise, surprise I register I am totally detached, no emotion. Calm. Sober.

I observe expectation. I went from survival mode to “thrilled” in 7 days, surely in 14 days my body should be Bali ready!? Lol!

Expectation I may have had but I also register I was not, am not hooked on the outcome.

Overall, I was in awe how quickly one can shift the focus when one has sobriety.

It turns out that Dr M is still thrilled with my progress, and I will see him again on Friday 13^th for an update. Watch this space!!

I hopped on to AirBnB to cancel my accommodation – only to find I missed the deadline due to time zone differences. So….to be continued... 🙂

Last night I did some recapitulation of my March 2025 newsletter - and I have full reason to set my intent on booking a flight later this month!

Have fun with our theme this month, my friends!

With all my love and hope,
(Big hugs)
Elizabeth